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Smile . . . tomorrow will be worse

Things will go wrong in any given situation, if you give them a chance. If there's more than one possible outcome of a job or task, and one of those outcomes will result in disaster or an undesirable consequence, then somebody will do it that way. Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time.

I think Iran is the best country for Morphy's laws, cuase if there's 50 percent chance for these lows to occur in Iran this chance would be 90 percent!!


here is some of these lows:

1. Anything that can go wrong will go wrong


2. Nothing is as easy as it looks.


3. Everything takes longer than you think.


4. If there is a possibility of several things going wrong, the one that will cause the most damage will be the one to go wrong. Corollary: If there is a worse time for something to go wrong, it will happen then


5. If anything simply cannot go wrong, it will anyway.


6. Left to themselves, things tend to go from bad to worse.


7. If everything seems to be going well, you have obviously overlooked something.


8. Whenever you set out to do something, something else must be done first.


9. Every solution breeds new problems.


10. You never run out of things that can go wrong.


11. All the good ones are taken.


12. If the person isn't taken, there's a reason.


13. Every kind action has a not-so-kind reaction.


14. Nice guys(girls) finish last.


15. The more beautiful the woman is who loves you, the easier it is to leave her with no hard feelings.


16. Sex takes up the least amount of time and causes the most amount of trouble.


17. A man in the house is worth two in the street.


18. Virginity can be cured.


19. Sex is dirty only if it's done right.


20. The best way to hold a man is in your arms.


21. Sex is hereditary. If your parents never had it, chances are you won't either.


22. A woman never forgets the men she could have had; a man, the women he couldn't.


23. A man can be happy with any woman as long as he doesn't love her.


24. There is no difference between a wise man and a fool when they fall in love.


25. Beauty is skin deep; ugly goes right to the bone.

Solitude

You look so fine,

I want to break your heart,

And give you mine,

You're taking me over,

It's so insane,

You've got me tethered and chained,

I hear your name,

And I'm falling over,

I'm not like all the other guys,

I can't take it like the other guys,

I won't share it like the other guys

That you used to know,

Have you ever wished that you were the first one who could choose something for the first time?

Have you ever had mixed emotions about something? sometimes I feel that I don't want to see anyone, I can live alone and survive, but next min I'm so stressed out by looking at future and seeing myself alone.

You look so fine,

Knocked down,

Cried out,

Been down just to find out,

I'm through,

Bleeding for you,

I'm open wide,

I want to take you home,

We'll waste some time,

You're the only one for me,

I'm not like all the other guys,

I won't take it like the other guys,

I won't fake it like the other guys,

That you used to know,

Why do others destroy all things behind themself?

Once my sis said that she rather see the one she love die than watching herself suffer,

but I wish I could die instead of suffering, can wish something bad for someone I love.

Yea, I would die for you, I've been dying just to feel you by my side, to know that you're mine, Wish that no one was here that I could love, I'm so much stronger without love,

What's Love, hate Emotions, they're screwing my life, I'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat.

You're taking me over,

Over and overI'm falling over,

Over and over,

You're taking me over,

Drown in me one more time,

Do what you want to do,

Just pretend happy end,

Let me know let it show,

Ending with letting go,

Let's pretend, happy end

Is life anything just pretending? I donno if I'm so much real for you, is it so hard to pretend that life is fine, I hate life, I need time, I need you,

it's really Eight of swords, I'm stucked in this life.

Fever (Fear)

I always draw back from trying something new because of fear, fear that I might not make it, fear of being seen to make a mistake, even if that error is essential to finding the correct answer.

One thing that I'm always afraid of is being rejected from someone, you can always say that "well he/she didn't really know me" and "it's her/his loss" and "He/she just wasn't my type" but it don't really work, and your emotinons really hurts, feeling of failure and of not being wanted or not being good enough, is the worst feeling that you can ever experience.

All in my life there were just two person that I fear most, a woman and a man!

Can't have life without non of them and also with both of them! Even can't choose one of them!

I'm so afraid of making her upset, and don't know who he is!

Sure that soon I must face this fear.

:(

Heaven

Do you wanna go to Heaven? I don't ask if it really exist, just wanna know that do you really like this freaky place.

Do you feel guilty when you do something wrong? How long does it take to forget that mistake and back again to your usual life?

Do you think that being guilty because of being religious is somehow more than being dork, have you ever been acting like someone else just 'cause you thought that others whould not rely on you if you were yourself?

I hate people who makes me feel guilty, you know , sometimes it's not something that you've done that makes you feel guilt, it's just becuase of people that you feel like that, and if you were alone you never would feel guilty.

How much do you like to be yourself?

Have you ever felt guilty because of being yourself?

In my beliefs there is nothing such a Hevean or hell, or even God! We can make Heaven ourself, and God is nothing else than Love and we make the Heaven with our love.

I'm sure that I'm not in Heaven and I don't have any God, wish one day I could find a way to Heaven.

Green land

First of all I must appreciate Neda for inviting me to be part of this game,
but my life is like a cemetery for my death ambitions , this game meant to be something fun, however I lost so many wishes, but you know something the average of my new born hopes are much more than death ones.
There is something obvious that if you lose a dream, you never can get it again. The question often asked of a child is, “what is your ambition?" as I grew up, my answer ranged through lots of things, but there’s something that hasn’t changed yet, I want a simple life, you can’t imagine how much simple, I want a cottage middle of nowhere, maybe an island, there must be no need for car, telephone,…, I want mint and fresh nature, and of course I don’t want to see any human around, if you really can find a true man these days! Maybe once a week I like to have guests, I mean really close close friends like Pejvak!

First I wanted to say that I don’t need electricity but how can you live without that, especially there is no mean of cooking without electricity, one of my hobbies, is cooking, when I’m alone and don’t have anything to do and anything to care, my hands are creative, they can cook, draw, paint, knit, … ,
I want to have a garden which is mostly part of nature instead of an artificial garden, where my lovebirds can fly freely without of fearing of a stone which is throwing by a kid. There was a time that in this dream there had been someone else who I liked to share my whole life with, mais I don’t know why je suis seul in this dream.
To cut a long story short, I must say that, what I all want is a simple life without the pressure of future, do you know why I’ve this dream? Cause most of the times I get scared with my limitations and then act passively instead of actively. I also have this tendency to exaggerate my problems and then get overwhelmed by the magnitude. I really get scared and then instead of doing something about it I punish myself with not acting and getting scared even more!!! Maybe you can call it the shadow of limitations, cause if I face the problems, I’m sure that I can solve them, anyway I prefer to hide instead of solving them, and the point is that I hate to be under pressure, if there was someone who could decide and think about this damn future, I would do the rest.
Neda in her blog, had wished that if she could die after ones who she love, but in my dreams there is no end to anything, you’ve all the time on the world, BTW it’s to much pressure to think about if you die first or someone you love! ! !

p.s.1 do you know what's wrong with the first pic?

p.s.2 I want to invite Mademoiselles Romina, Negar, Shadi.

Woozy

I must warn you first, this post is bullshit, I don't mean that my last posts were good, but at least I was not unconscious when I was writing them,
I feel so dizzy right now, light really hurt my eyes so I turned it off, do you think I would survive?
I mean mentally or maybe physically!
the last time that I had this strange feeling was about 4 years ago, I was in a crowd but really alone, rolling drunk, the last part is shameless, I used drug too, I mean I was too much drunk that someone took it under my noise...
any way it was not just because of feeling drunk and drugged, it was the begining of a lost, not just the one I loved, loosing lots of thing, there is nothing worst than feeling like a jerk,
after that I've promised myself not to be drunk even if I was alone.
you know that, when you feel that it's your last days of your life you can love anyone, I wish I could know that what's happening to me, most of the people don't like to know about their future, they would be shit scared if they know that the day that they would die, but if I knew that it would be a sigh of relief for me, really I could live much more confident.

souvenir

It was really hard to think about the music that I like most, actually I love more than one song, mostly they’re sad songs which I have memory of them and like them so much, I’ve mixed emotions when I listen to “Au Café des Délices” by Patrick Bruel, maybe it’s because of its Arabic rhythm and the French singer with his sexy accent,
it’s about misty memories which are like an eclipse, a night full of stars on Tunis’ harbour, the wind from the van of your grandfather who’s sitting at the Cafe Des Delices,
it says that your memories get misty, you can see her again, that girl, the kiss that hurts in port El Kantaoui, the first love words on velvet songs, Abibi Abibi.
The Phrase Yalil, yalil Habibi Yalil is an introduction phrase that is usually used in every Arabian song.
This song reminds me of my lonely nights which I was really down, and worried for someone who really didn’t worth, Cafe des Delices is somehow a love song and as I told one of my friend I’m too old for this kinda stuff, I mean there was a time that I was so romantic, but these days I’m more tragic than romantic, so it’s better to talk about another song like” Je suis malade” by Lara Fabian, I really love her, I always brust into tears when I listen to this song, Lara Fabian is a singer who can fulfill your emotions with pain and her stong voice has the power to close you to tears.
I donno why I’ve just written about French songs, maybe it’s because most of my Exes like these songs and I’ve memory with them, have you ever heard “Ziggy” by Celine Dion??
This Canadian female vocalist is not just a singer who has a great voice, I feel that she’s so down to earth, a woman with very high level of emotions who can sing a song like that, actually she’s true, you can love some one even if you found out that you can never have him!
Mostly when I’m home I listen to Persian old songs, my favorite singers are females such as Simin Ghanem, Pouran, Marzieh, Sima Mafiha, Elahe... , once I remember that I wanted to translate one of Simin Ghanem’s songs for a foreign friend, it called Sib(apple) which is symbol of regret in this song, maybe my life is nothing just regret and that’s why I like this song so much. I snuggled so many times in the dark to this song… till I fell asleep.

USA Bombing Iran

Friday is my worst day in the week, in Iran Friday holiday, usually Thursday is so crowded in Tehran, because next day most people don't go to work, all streets, malls, shopping centres , parks,... (we don't have bar and club in Iran), anywhere you can go and have fun are so crowded, the traffic is so heavy Thursday night that you mostly are in your car waiting for red light to be green and when it's green the next sec it's red again, anyway city was so alive you could see people anywhere, shopping, walking, every restaurants and coffee shops were completely full, but nowadays it's somehow curfew, since Ahmadinejad have became our precious president people are sooooo happy that they even can't come to street alone, you can't wear anything just sac, the only colors that are allowed are black and grey, women must wear veil and cover all of their body, just one eye is allowed to be not covered, fortunately men have more choices, they can wear black or white long sleeved shirts, no hair style is allowed, and if you have wavy hair you're arrested.

look at these links:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=gj7_q97dqek

http://www.tiknews.org/albums/show/?id=62&pid=13

Any way these people are our whitelighter, our angel, our God!!! how can we not obey them!?

wish USA bombing us and all be dead but not slave of this Islamic Government.

P.S. it's raining cats and dogs, I thing even sky is sorry for Persian.

All good things must come to an end

Have you ever had the feeling that life is so nice, everything goes around exactly as you expect, then in the blink of an eye, everything changes and you become the only miserable man on the earth.

But you now something at that moment you may be a lucky man 'cause you can start again,

it depends on you, if you like to make a bubble and when it's floating on the air you enjoy it alot, then suddenly it would blow, at that time do you regret for that or start to make a new one, bigger and much more prettier?

when I'm running in a race , if I fall down, really I can't jump up, and start so fast, really need 5 min at least to lay down and feel that no one is around me, then I would continue with all of my strength.

Beginning

Look at my eyes, what can you find from them, deep and mysterious, my hair can easly distrak your attention, look at my lips, do you really think that I need to open them when my eyebrows can talk to you?

so you've an imagination of a monster, Belial, Lucifer,... who's always happy with his nasty works, and successful in his life, and approaches what ever he wants.

But the truth is the writer of this blog is such a looser, who feel so demolished right now.

Now you think that these looser can't even write, but you're wrong, every one has a level, maybe high maybe low, and when he catches that level he would start again, better than the last time, much more powerful, and you can see that black shine in my eyes is glowing.