Motivator

There’s no one who can live without any purpose in their life, when you lose your aims there would be no reason to breath, whenever you find yourself, you would seek for ambitions in your life, notwithstanding that there’s nothing at the end; but having a goal in your life is the only reason to carry on living. Loving someone, wanting a better life, fearing future and the path that we’re walking, would help us to go ahead.

Love, some people would do anything for a simple deep affection, they even can become a monster, and love gives them such a power that they can do anything to approach their goal. It was a time that I gave my heart to someone, someone who was my dream, my life, my precious; in return it was just a smile, simply I lost my heart, I think it was the first time in my life that it was not just a loss, even it was so hard for me but It made me stronger, I found out something, Love is not my motivator; whenever I’m in love, my life doesn’t change in a positive way anymore, I lose the path, and totally change to a dumb fuck.

I always wanted a better life, I mean everybody want a better life it’s not just me; why we want to increase the quality of our life is still another question, but it’s a straight and a clear way to go on; I know that I’m at my wit’s end, and the only thing that I need is a nifty plan, I already have one, but really stuck in a bad situation, two month ago I thought I would give it a go, but now I really know that it’s the only way to make a change in my life; therefore I’m going to put my mind to it, till I can open up new possibilities.

Sometimes future is so unseen for me and fearing of it makes me dream my life away; most people would come up with a new strategy when they feel that their future is in an unsafe situation, but I’m my own worst enemy, I would ruin everything when I am not sure about something.

All I wanted to say is that I’m trying to give a meaning to my life; I know it’s not possible unless I do something serious and I can’t count on any one, but I really need a motivator, I know I’ve one but it’s so hard to approach and in this damn country you never can rely on anything and have a real plan for your life.